The Leaving

All I want is to see you walk through the door. I want to see your fucking cock hard in your pants for me, I want those violent eyes to challenge me, subdue me. I want you to punish me and I want to come so hard I can breathe again.


violent means to a soft place

I don’t mind when it gets to be too much

When it hurts just a bit

I’ve learned to relax around the pain

How good it feels to be taken, to give in

Allow it to hurt

Allow myself to like it


And I can’t help myself


As maddening as you are, nothing keeps me tethered to this bed like those thick hands around my throat


You release, I flinch

Don’t make me beg for it


But then you clasp them around me once more

I watch you study me beneath you

Curious to see my struggle

Oh, but I’ve learned not to struggle, and I’m never afraid of you

I’ve learned not to fear

To let breath escape me, just for a time


I hear your breath quicken

Excited by my submission, the darkening of my face

I take one last look at you, what you’re doing to me


I couldn’t stop you if I tried


My body pinned while I escape

Into soft plumes, up, up

You release me again, just when I need you to

A single hand